I’m not sure if it’s the fact that it’s summer time (can this be a legitimate excuse?) or the fact that I have 3 small children (yeah, this has to be it,) all who demand my attention in various ways, but lately, I cannot stay on top of things. One day, the house is clean but dinner isn’t eaten until 7:30. Another day, dinner is fabulous and ready when Phil gets home, but the house is a complete disaster. Some days I get tons of work done, but my kids watch way too much Netflix. Other days, we’re outside for hours and I am completely behind on work. Some mornings I wake up and shower, which puts me in a halfway decent mood. Other days, I wake up the minute Phil is walking out the door and don’t change out of my PJs until mid afternoon. What I’m trying to say here is I am juggling a lot of balls and I have not yet mastered the art. Capiche? At the same time, I’m having all kinds of crazy thoughts about all the things. Buying a home. Using a budget. Starting to include some “school” in our day. Setting up regular playdates. Etc. I usually am not a control freak of any sort, but suddenly I want to be in charge of and on the ball with everything. I want us to have a rhythm. We’ve never had one before, not really. We lived life on the seat of our pants. But with 3 in tow and a baby who wants to nurse ALL DAY LONG, the seat of our pants thing just isn’t working. Everyday we have meltdowns and fits and messes. Everyday I am texting Phil about how absurd it all is. Is this really my life? Everyday I am counting down the minutes until bedtime. (Which really isn’t like it used to be because of child #3 who thinks I am an all-you-can-eat buffet.) And I hate that. What used to be living on love has turned into survival mode, my friends. And that is not a blog that anyone wants to read. So this summer, I am giving myself some much-needed and well-deserved time off. I wish I could say to not expect a post here until September rolls around, but if you know me at all, you know that’s not very likely. I’ll still be here, sharing a new #livingonloveproject each month. And later in June, there’s going to be an AMAZING giveaway. (Seriously. Mark your calendars for June 30.) I’m sure I’ll have some other things that I’ll just HAVE to share. But the point is, I’m not going to spend nearly as much time planning and writing and posting. Instead, I’m going to try to figure out how to manage this family of 5 without feeling like I’m a crazy person by 4:00 in the afternoon each day.
We’ll still be chatting about all sorts of fun things over at The Gathering, and Lord knows I can’t stay away from Instagram. So if you want to stay in touch over the next few months while the blog is chirping crickets, that’s where I’ll be.
I love you all so very much and appreciate your understanding and support! -L